Tonight a group of us got together just to worship God and take delight him and also to let him delight in us and pour into us. Caleb, who was leading worship started singing a song that said, “I belong to you… You have bought me… I am yours.” God brought the story of Hosea to my heart so I opened Hosea and started reading, and Hosea 1:2 says, “When the Lord first spoke through Hosea, the Lord said to Hosea, “Go, take yourself a wife of whoredom and have children of whoredom, for the land creates great whoredom by forsaking the Lord.” And about a year ago my mom forwarded an e-mail to me that was an article about a teacher who was talking about how the church has progressed. He started out talking about what the church was like when it first started, but then he got to the church today in America. He was talking about how it has become more like a business and worries about the numbers and money then the people. When he said this comment a girl in the class raised her hand and said, “I thought the church was the body.” and He was just kind of like ya… that is what I have been talking about this entire class… The church is suppose to be the body but we have turned it into a business. And the girls responds, “When a body becomes a business doesn’t that make it a prostitute?”
Christ has married a prostitute church. He has married a whore. We have been make children of whoredom. We have been living in the flesh and in the world and teaching our children to do the same. We have been living in a life that has forsaken the Lord.
Hosea 14:7, “They shall RETURN and dwell beneath my shadow; they shall flourish like the grain; they shall blossom like the vine; their fame shall be like the wine of Lebanon.” We are returning to Christ. We are leaving our past of whoredom.
While driving back to Lee Misa and I were talking and she was telling me how God reminded her how in the Bible times often a dowry would be paid to the husband of the bride. And she was just asking God what was her dowry to God? What was good enough? And God just told her it was her! She was her own dowry! She was good enough! And she re-spoke that to me tonight as I told her all of what I just said above. And God MESSED ME UP right then. Because I was still a whore when I was the dowry and it was still good enough for him! Even while we were WHORES we were good enough to be our own dowry.
So about thirty minuets passes and God is just breaking me. I am crying and just amazed at the fact I am NO LONGER A WHORE!!! God married me through that. Cory another kid at Lee got up and started sharing his testimony over spring break and God continued to download more stuff on this topic into me. He told me I can still where my white wedding dress down the aisle. I do not have to walk in the shame of who I was, who I am not anymore, on my wedding day with Him my dress gets to be white.
Then about 45 seconds- 3 minutes later( I really am just pulling that out of thin air I have NO idea how long it was) He reminds me of how we have been going around campus talking about how God is taken back by us. He cannot stand the glance of our eyes. He is so enthralled with them. And he told me I have been enthralled with your eyes even while you were a whore. And now, now that you are righteous, pure, cleansed I cannot look at your eyes I just get so taken back by them. When I leaned over to Misa to tell her that God had just told her how pure her eyes were and was speaking that to her!!!
Next Cory who is still sharing his testimony says the words, “As we were getting ready for the Big day…” And I look at Misa and go, “They were getting ready for their wedding day!” And then Misa responds with, “It was at the wedding where Christ turned the water into wine, and the wine is what satisfied the family and friends of the couple getting married. Christ wine is what satisfies our family and friends!”
Then God gave me a picture of a bride standing at the doors at the end of the aisle and he showed me how there is NOTHING standing in the way of the bride getting to the husband. Her eyes are locked on him and aisle is clear for her to go to him. All you do from there is get closer to him… You just have to say yes to his marriage proposal.
Then God told Misa how the rose petals you walk on down the aisle are the blood and the wine that drip of Christ’s lips and they are caressing our feet. Then God reminded me how He washes His disciples feet. It is with the blood and the wine that drips of Christ’s mouth that He washes our feet!
Even cooler though is as your going through all of this God is not just down there waiting for you to reach him. God is our DAD so He is walking us down the aisle! He is with us as we walk down the aisle to him! Then he is also the person we trust everything with and so he is our Maid of Honor He is with us in our time of preparing for the wedding too. He walks with us through EVERY aspect of our wedding day!
After God showed myself and Misa all of this I was telling Holly, another girl at our school, what He showed us. At the end she told me how it was not always a dowry given in Bible times though, there was often a bride price too. God had been telling her how he gave EVERYTHING as his bride price. He gave EVERYTHING so He could marry us.
Then later I was telling Caroline all of what God has shown now several of us, she took me back to the story in Exodus 33 where God said (verse 3), “Go up to a land flowing with milk and honey; but I will not go up among you, lest I consume you on the way, for you are a stiff-necked people.” She was telling me how God would not go with them because He knew He would get so disgusted so raged by the things they would do that He could not go with them with out destroying them. (verse 4)When the people heard this disastrous word, they mourned, and no one put on his ornaments. Prostitutes wear so much and so many ornaments. It was when the people of Israel took of their ornaments and turned from their way of prostitution that God said to them (verse 14) “My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.” We have laid down our life of whoredom married into righteous and God’s presence goes with us and He gives us rest.
When I got back to my dorm Sharon came up to me and was telling her some of what God did in her that night and at one point she saw a veil being put over her face. And she said to God, “No, Lord, I want you to remove the veils that blind me.” And He said to her, “Sharon, this is your wedding veil.”
It is so fun for me to see how God gave me that first part of this revelation at the very beginning of the night and He just took and showed me how big He is, how good He is. He gave so many people parts to throw into this revelation and He just continued to add to it through the ENTIRE night. He used so many people to put the puzzle together too. He is so good.
Last night was one huge marriage ceremony and honeymoon. It was absolutely awesome! He delights in us. Let Him delight you. He is yearning so deeply to be able to delight in you, let him.